I might be alone in thinking this, but statistically that's impossible, so I'm gonna keep writing. Why is there this unspoken yet socially defined line between humility and pride? Where did I learn that being proud and boastful is bad? Who is the one that defines the line I'm so fearful of stepping over? What do I fear is on the other side? I suppose rejection and abandonment (repeating patterns in my life). How is it okay for me to pump up my own friends and family but doing it for myself holds a negative and undesirable effect? I should not expect myself to be able to give credit where credit is due to others if I can't give it to myself. I think that's why I can't easily take compliments from others. Part of me isn't used to hearing it from myself, so its a foreign energy coming in and the antibodies of my brain (the ego) are fighting them off. I see nothing wrong with self celebrating whenever one feels like it, I'm trying to overcome the scarcity mindset that if attention is placed on myself then there isn't anything available for people just as deserving of all the praise. Single parents, working students, people coming to terms with trauma, all of humanity deserves to see themselves as celebrities. To know they are worthy of all the praise heaped on them by others and know they are most deserving of hyping themselves up too. One source of fear for me is making sure I stay grounded knowing that as bright as my light shines, it doesn't dim the light of another. The purpose of shining my brightest is to show that others can do the same. From now on I accept my shine and gladly make room for others without playing myself smaller. I'm ready for a world full of humans who feel all their emotions, take chances on love, follow their bliss, and celebrate their imperfections. These are the celebrities I want to see!
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